sing...sing a song

I joined choir again. I have always loved singing but am on the bashful side so never really did anything with it. I was in choir about five years ago but with three small children and the youth ministry I just ran out of time for it so I quit. Since I'm not really doing anything else I talked to Steph about it a while back. She kept telling me I should join and I wanted to but then the shyness would creep in and I wouldn't. She finally talked to Doug for me (gotta love her) and before I knew it I was in.

Last night was my first practice. I was on my way when she called and said she wasn't feeling well so she was going to turn around and go home. What?! Are you kidding me?! Oh no! Maybe I'm not feeling well either. Yep...my stomach is definitely having issues. Then I told myself to buck up. It's not like I don't know anybody there. It was a little nerve racking walking in the room and trying to figure out where I fit in but it was good for me. She got me most of the way there but I had to get myself to the finish.

The Christmas program is only three weeks away so they practiced that first. I don't know the songs so I just listened. Then they practiced what they are doing for Sunday. First they practice in the modular then they go to the auditorium to get their places set and run through the songs a couple times. I was just going to watch when Doug said something about me finding my place for Sunday. Wait! You want me to sing...on stage...mic in hand...this weekend? As in three days away? Talk about jumping in with both feet! It's not like I don't know the songs. I have heard them all before. But I always had the words in front of me. If I'm up there I have to know all of the words.

Can I confess something? I am one of those people that makes fun, usually to myself but occasionally to Rob, of those people who are on stage and don't know the song. They are up there singing away but their lips aren't matching anything that is being sung. It looks ridiculous and I just want to say either learn the song or don't go up there. It's just not good.

So, that being said, I know there are others out there like me and I would prefer not to be the one they are snickering at. So I got a CD and listened to it on the way home last night and in the shower this morning. I will probably be listening to it all day for the next three days just to make sure I have all the words down. Then, just when I think I do, I will get up on the stage and forget all of them and then still end up looking like a fool.

Wish me luck. Only two days to go.